HAPPY NEW YEAR! I mean happy belated new year. well, it's still new year soooooo.

Hope you have a great year guys. (:

life sucks. life just sucks.

i need some fun to let go of everything.

Everybody's sooo happy about the school holidays. It's like hell for me. BORING SHIT. Seriously. stuck at home. and usually other people would continue the sentence by adding 'doing nothing'.

nahh, not really the case for me. i DO have stuff to do. then why is it boring, you may ask? i'm not just doing ANY stuff. i'm not doing fun stuff like going out, rock climbing, chilling with my friends, hanging out at the mall watching movies. nope. never gonna happen.

I AM STUCK AT HOME, PRACTICING PIANO AND VIOLIN. so what? music is relaxing. not if you have to practice day and night. hours and hours and hours doing the same thing over and over again. and when i ask for some rest? or maybe just a day off? i get scolded by my parents. "exams are coming! stop daydreaming! it's DIPLOMA! not just grade one or two yadayadayada.." maybe i should have waited till college. i can't even enjoy my teenage years and have fun like others.

well it's not that i don't like music. it's just that i want a little time off at least. come on, is that too much to ask? i wake up every day with sore arms from playing too much. i just want to watch a little tv and spend some time with my friends. maybe two hours of rest is enough. hell, i don't even get to rest. "mum, i'm tired. i practiced a lot already." "nobody ever does enough. you just keep practicing. even when it's perfect, you keep practicing to keep it perfect. no rest for you." here we go again. hmm, typing what my mum says doesn't really express how she says it. she doesn't just talk in a nice way. she shouts at me. the neighbours can hear, but what does she care about?

oh well. guess i should continue practicing before my mum nags again. i hate her nagging. she says the same thing every day it's getting annoying. it's annoying. okay. bye (:

sooooooo. hello there blog. dying of hunger? need more words to keep you alive? well, here you go. you've probably died already. ah wells. i'll just try to resurrect you muahaha. that was just lame.

anyways. i've been really busy lately. have problems and stuff. gotta study for exams and all. and well, yeah i admit i was spending some of my time tumblring i forgot about this blog.

you may be wondering. problems? oh come on. you're just a kid who's only sixteen years old. you want problems? wait till you grow up and start working. all your problems will come running to you. your problems now are like nuts compared to problems i'll face next time.

WELL, PROBLEMS ARE STILL PROBLEMS. who cares how big or small problems are. problems can't be stereotyped that way. hey, you're a useless problem. you are a stupid problem. you're a small problem. you're a big problem. you're a maths problem. you're an add maths problem.

all problems are the same. they need to be solved. yet, i still don't know how to solve mine. way to go, kelly.

okay screw all this emo shit.

i went jogging with shen and wei yin today. we were talking about letting people pass us cause we were walking. and wei yin was saying why should we let them through us. and i was just randomly saying,"yeah why should i im sexier than them." obviously i was joking and this man passed us and he was smiling at us. HOLY SHIT EMBARRASSING MOMENTTTT.

it rained and we had to run back to wei yin's house. and then me and jin shen ran back to his house. actually i was running. he was cycling. the last 50m he gave me his bike.

yeah that's about it. bye guyysss :D

i'm definitely sure no one checks my blog anymore. hahahah.

i kinda forgot about my blog, again. HEH.

so besides tumblring, i've been.. doing stuff. other stuff. other than blogging. dooohh. of course. hahahah okay.

i baked muffins todaaaayy! super deeelliiiisshh. it cheers me up. :D it makes me forget about the stupid cyst in my eye. well, for awhile. but still, it helps.

i don't really know if anyone I KNOW is still reading my blog since i left it dead for sooo long. i guess i broke my promise again. to blog every day? yeah, i broke it. again. whoopsies. i only see spammers on my blog. hahah.

if im doing surgery on my eye, i'll wait till it's the holidays. not that i want to wait, but the doctor said it's no rush. but i seriously think that lump in my eye is annoying the hell out of me. really.

okay i shall stop complaining and happily eat the muffins i just baked. ciao peeps. if you're still reading. hahahh :D

one whole week in china. and i'm finally baacck. home sweeeet hommeee :D

zhangjiajie is an awesomely beaauuutiifull place. it really looks like pandora. well, of course. hahahah. cause that's where they filmed avatar. the blue avatar. not the air bender. my brother told me the wrong info.

it's reaaaallyyy scary though. i couldn't see the bottom. and the mountains are all sooo steep. photos will explain. but i'm to lazy to post pictures now heheheh.

the trip was fiinneee. i saw many tribes. clothes there are sooo colourful.

i sat for quite many hours on the bus to go to changsha and fenghuang. eight hours. that's really long isn't it? it was tiring. but i watched movies on the bus. and slept.

i didn't do any of my homework. and i'm going back to school tomorrow. yaayy.





my blog is so dead.

my dog just passed away not long ago.

i'm sad.

i hope my teachers don't see that my eyes are swollen.

i hope i don't cry in their classes.

im devastated. he's been with me for around 13 years. i love him. i love him so much.

rip sammy, i'll always love you where ever you are. you'll be forever etched in my heart. <3